Sad LOVE

In this page, there'll be only Sad Love poems, some are real but some are just merely my imagination, just trying to be in somebody else's shoes, feel their sadness and make a conclusion in my poems.
I only publish some here, but hope you still enjoy it:)


ONE TICKET TO HEAVEN
(9th August 2005)

If there’s ever a lottery
And the prize is one ticket to heaven
I will surely try to win it
Maybe by that I can see you again

Because I know I’m a sinner
And if I die I will not be placed in heaven
So I’m afraid that we will not meet
If that day finally come to me

I realize that is just a wishful thinking
And it’s so impossible to happen
But I think you will be okay up there
Cause God surely loves you more than I do
****

(Note: dedicated to Mom that passed away 13th July 2005)

FROZEN HEART
(19th December 2005)

I watch the show fall through my window
Even I’m shield by these square walls
Somehow the winter wind could froze my heart

The warmth of a fireplace could not melt the ice
It even gets harder and colder everyday
Everything started when you walked out of that door

You took away the happiness and laughter in your backpack
And you destroyed all hopes with your footsteps
My spirit had also died by the slamming of the door
****

NO LONGER ALIVE
(19th April 2006)

How can I say that I can’t life without you?
While a part of me had already died
From the time I found out your adultery

There’s no difference between life and death
Both are like bitter fruits
That harvested from the field of misery

So even if you go away
It will not change anything at all
As I am no longer alive
****

THE ONE YOU SEE
(20th April 2006)

Even I stand alone in front of you
I’m always invisible for your eyes

There are hundreds of imaginary crowds
That covers your sight like a wall

So this love that I feel for you
Will be unspoken forever

How can I hope you to love me?
If I never be the one you see
****

AUTUMN IN FEBRUARY
(13th February 2008)

Leaves started to fall off my tree of trust
Tears leak out from the pipe of promises
Sad sonata chirped by a crow
That sits on my heart’s window

Sadness is the color of the day I passed
While gloom is the clothe I wear
One extraordinary season in February
It only happen in my world
****

DAYS WITHOUT LIGHT
(20th March 2009)

The amber saree that I wear on the day you left
Had witness my infirmity heart

Every falling leaves of banyan tree outside Lord Krishna’s temple
Follow your step out of my heart

Have I taken away your freedom,
Since you put the holy Mangalsutra around my neck?

Why should you put an end to this wedlock
That holds us together?

From today I will have days without light and night without dreams
As the lantern of my life had burnt out

“Mera dil ka Raja”, I will wait for your return with the fullest of my heart
Until the day have no sun and the sky have no cloud.
****

Inspired by India’s customs

A SECOND CHANCE
(22nd October 2009)

Her eyes gaze at the empty room
While her mind travel far away

Out of the space that surrounds her
To a distance place that I don’t know where

Longing for love and comfort
That had slipped away from the grasp of her hand

Still waiting with desperation
To be granted a second chance in life
****

TOGETHER ONCE MORE
(21st March 2010)

my precious diamonds
these eyes of mine are desperate to see your faces
while these arms are dying to hold both of you like in the past

since the separation day
with the man I had ever called husband
my right to be a mother had been taken away

I will never forget you my children
for both of you are also a part of my soul that I carry in me

I’m waiting for the day when my prayers would be answered
and we could be together once more
****

Inspired by KO HYUN JUNG’s divorce
that made her unable to meet her children
(Ko Hyun Jung who played the character of Lady Mishil)

POEM FROM THE WEST
(11th June 2010)

Your Daddy always came home drunk from the saloon
While your Mommy cried under the feed of The Crossed Lord
Each time she visited the Church

In my side
I never have a peaceful sleep anymore
After you’ve gone and left us with broken hearts

This old town is getting so unbearable to live in
Because the memory of you scattered everywhere
As far as the eye could see

I wonder will you ever return
after the anger flame died?
No one seems to have the answer to my question

If one day God send you back home
Than I could see you again riding your horse across the prairie
When the sun is ready to set
***